To Move On, I Must Let Go...the desperate hunger to be loved...

To move on, I must let go

To be free and not to have nothing while having everything. Every tear that I cry, your smile is inside. Slowly I burn from the inside out because loving you is blinding me....

With hatred.

Uninhibited hatred smothering. The desperate hunger to be loved. I try to smile the way I once did before. I had anything to lose, before I had anything. To hide, before I knew the tears.

Desire.

I now cry. Even in its widest of tantrums can neither persuade me it is love, nor stop me from wishing it were...

My weakness is loving you; It is a sporadic condition. A chemically imbalanced addiction. Begging for forgiveness I cannot give. So bitter. So angry. So full of hate....

Give...

Take...

Give...

Take...

Give..........................

So repetitive, again and again, floating,. flooding, drowning, fighting.....

Every tear that I cry, your smile is inside. DeJaVu...I've felt this once before, loving someone, loving you...It is blinding me with hatred (towards you or towards myself) My weakness is loving you.

Be done with the past. Let go. Don't cling to the sporadic condition. A chemical imbalanced addiction.

You pick wisely, but you lose anyway!